I've decided.
I hope it would be the best decision to...

CUT MY HAIR SHORT!

Correct. I'm gonna chop it off!

What the hell, Finals is in exactly 6 hours time but I'm still in the midst of deciding to keep my hair long or short.
Great!

P/S : Till today, I still don't understand what's inside Your heart. What do you truly want?

Back to book indulging!
God bless me.

Is there any thing that could stressicide the stress-ness in me??

The last day of the semester.
The last day of lecture and tutorial class.
But it's the first time of experiencing fire evacuation in uni ( everyone seems to ignore the triggered alarm!)

Finals is in less than a week.
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
I always want what I can't have

For you I will!

Till I see you after finals!

Do you love flowers?

Ai Mei is SO SO SO SO paranoid over at

THE WEATHER!
The rain comes and goes. The wind is so fierce till I almost got blown away. The sun comes and goes. The sun light freaks out my eyes while reading book.OUCH!

THREE IDIOTS ON MY LEFT
They are busy cam-whoring and jumping around, pathetic case is they are shaking the table while I'm drawing graphs. HELOOO! Finals next week lar, still got time to cam-whore!

TWO CHINA NERDS ON MY RIGHT
Can't you fucking reduce the volume of your songs!!!

PLEASE ALLOW ME TO FINISH MY REVISION ON OPTION LAR!

 

Ai Mei is so frustrated! Angry! Pissed!

ARGGHHHHHH

She thought she has mistakenly took the wrong book and decided not to consult lecturer.wtf!

She made appointment with lecturer but she was ditched!wtf!

She wanted to print notes but found out her printing credit left $0.10 only! And she checked her purse, she has only $2 which is insufficient to top up minimum $5.wtf!

She checked her mail today and realised she was invited to Women in Mathematics lunch party from 12-2pm. But when she looked at the clock, it was already 2.15pm! wtf!

She went back home to pack laptop and decided to head to uni to study. But she left her universal adaptor at home.wtf!!!

She decided to walk back to uni to attend lecture class so that she could crave more tips on finals. But the class ended 30mins later. wtf!!

She was accused by landlord for using housemate's heater because she was wearing singlet and shorts when the temperature outside is 17degree celcius. wtf!

This is so so so WRONG!

Why is my day so unlucky???????

 

Thanks.

 

What's the point of being loved when the process keep rebooting?
Tell me it's my fault.
Tell me it's all I want.

All I need is you by Click Five no longer playing in my head.

With Love

It was my second last paper.
*PANIC*
And the tutor gave out the paper, I prayed.
Thank God, I got the easier paper.
Like, FINALLY!!
And I look at Aiwah's paper, wtf.She got the easiest paper.
That's so unfair!!!!!

And today, it will be the final and last test of the semester.
PHEWWWWW~~Sit back, relax~~
I'm well-prepared for this test. Too bad, these chapters wouldn't be examined again.
And worst thing is, the remaining chapters are tough!

Viola~~~~

At times, I wonder why is my heart vulnerable?
What are the factors that causing me to act this way? Inevitably, I could sense it's pressure.
I should be thinking in a positive way.
Try my best, then pack my bags, and go home.
Family has been planning for the things I should do once I touch down.
I'm fortunate to have them though I might find them irritating sometimes.
Well, it's just sometimes.

Let's cut the sober story.
Dear Wan Li, Happy 20th.
I do not know how are you feeling now.
But I wish you could stand up like how you used to.
Be an cheerful adult.
I'm looking forward to see you, I hope you do.

Last but not least, I hate Justin Lo cause I can't attend his concert that will be rocking at Genting TOMORROW!!!

P/S : 366 days

I Love You!

Are they too rich or generous?

I was first saddened by the test 2 paper that I've gotten yesterday. It was pretty BAD. But praise the Lord, I was urberly happy by the another test 2 paper results. Oh wait, that was because the paper wasn't as tough as we thought. Haihh watever larr. I just aim to pass. Can't believe I'm telling myself this. Where are all the motivations I have? Where are all the aims I have? Why can't I devote all my time into studies? This is human, when we are almost dying, we would be crying for all the mistakes we made and feel regretted over things that we had done. Human human, can you just shut up and move on?

I strongly agree with my dad, I should make more friends here. I did, but failed  Perhaps they are not friendly, or or perhaps they just hate me. Failure. As long I have my housemate and Maria, that's more than enough.

I had a sweet dream last two nights. It was about mummy visited Sydney! Sweet dream isn't sweet afterall. End up, it was my biatchy landlord who was making loud noise outside. I wish mummy could be here. Shriek at me for sleeping late. Shriek at me for studying late at night. Shriek at me for drinking coffee but ginseng, bird nest, and chicken essence. Shriek at me for not cleaning the room. Shriek at me for coming home late. Shriek at me for bathing late at night.Mummy oh mummy, I shall see you at Airport. Wheeee officially 4 weeks left!

I'm happy.

$$$ has been transferred!
No more cracking my head on how to spend 5 freaking hours at Bangkok Airport!
Test 2 results is pretty satisfying!

And now, I feel sober.

Another day has gone!
2 consecutive tests this week!
Counting down to finals!

But wait, I will be happy tomorrow.

MACCAS!

Oh wait a min, I will be sober after that.

Cause I need to nerd at library with Shan.

God, why can't I enjoy happiness at one shot?

For SerYee : Look at my tang yuen! Big right???

Why can't my dear surprise me with Krispy Kreme too??

Why can't I be Laughing buddha?????

Sometimes I wonder,

Why can't my brain absorb all the intelligences?

Why can't my brain be as powerful as Windows Vista?

God, tell me why?

I was exaggerating our love, digging my own grave, pushing the faults away, pestering myself, why are all these happening? As time passess, I realise, you are the first person I think of when it comes to obstacles for what we've done, you'll never fail to comfort me. At the critical point, I wish I could type out your number and ring you up. But wait, who am I to cry out to you and share the ups and downs with you. Though we both have defaulted the promises that we used to have, that is past. By looking at the mess I left for you, I frame myself as a piece of trash as well. Trillion apologies couldn't mend the broken pieces of your heart and cast away the scars that left behind. Those memories that we built would forever lay upon my shoulder, forever and ever.

Today, I look up the sky and the sun is shinning so brightly. Walking alone does remind me of a person, not the one who cared for me the past years, but the one who will only be there physically. The choice I made was for you, but it was only a false dream. Today, I'm standing here because of you. It was the worst decision to choose to live with you. Indeed, I would rather choose to live with someone I can't live without. And everything was caused by a materialistic girl, me! I wouldn't cry over a spilt milk hoping the time could turn back again, I would do what I am suppose to do and hoping for good and the best.

Thank God, I didn't dial your number. It wasn't because of coward or shame, but love stopped me from doing so. Today,tomorrow, and in the future, I would still ring you for appreciating your trust, your time, your faithfulness that had been planted on me.

"My love for you is blind", Lifehouse

Always and forever.

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Out of sudden, I felt so restless knowing the fact that finals is approaching in almost 2 weeks time. Prepare? Of course NOT! On the brighter side, I should be happy that I'm leaving a place where I've been suffering for 3 months. I'm feeding myself with more and more books now, isn't that suppose to happen during peak season? Library is so crowded with nerds, but me. I can't stand the books smell, especially those twenty years old books! Gosh! Anyway, I still couldn't believe I'm almost reaching the peak of the mountain. Unfortunately, I feel like releasing all the hooks that have been attached and jump off! The steeper the mountain is, the harder you could climb up. I just wanna jump off, could you fulfill my dream?

*slap slap slap*

OHH! I remember I promised God that I won't cry anymore.
OHH! I remember I promised God that I won't feel depress anymore.
OHH! I remember I promised Got that I will try my best.

Where are all the promises that I've made?

I miss Jia Xin

God has just granted me the best gift ever for my coming birthday.

Higher Linear Algebra Finals - 3rd November 2008

Never expect myself to challenge the toughest subject on my birthday.

God, You Rawk! Aku surrender!

Signing off,  wish me luck for my test!

I want Baby!

Kids are always, or precisely MOST OF THE TIME,  ADORABLE! They will do all sort of insane gesture to make you go MUAHAHAHA. At times, we tend to get irritated or paranoid over their high-pitch sream or cry. I have a thought that I do not want a baby cause baby is soooooo IRRITATING! Look, and now I want a baby.  I do not know how many times have I told Dee Lern that I really want to smack my niece's face just because she's overly CUTE! I wonder, is there any adjective word to describe "beyond cute"? Yesterday, she held the mic with so much feel and started singing! As usual, she danced crazily. The funniest part is she was so proud of her mickey balloon, and yeah, she purposely showed it right in front of the webcam! And not to forget, her strawberry bag, strawberry balloon, and strawberry hairclip. All strawberry, wtf!

Anyway daylight savings has just started and I was almost fainted when I look at the clock. And I have to adapt myself that I'm THREE hours ahead from family. I woke up at 12pm this afternoon, and very first thing hit my mind is LOOK AT MSN LAR! How can our life be without msn one day? Sad but truth, no one was available to chat at 9am, especially sunday morning where everyone would be going out for breakfast, bah kut teh, tai chi, market or sleeping. Eh, I saw SerYee is online, hence I bugged her.

"Hi Ser Yee!"

"Seryee is sleeping, her father is using."

"opps, sorry uncle"

Aiks, why is my sunday morning so dull? I wish I was in Malaysia. Then I could receive gazillion morning calls from Buttock, or have morning breakfast with family. Or or play with my niece before wash up. Those aren't going to happen till I go home next month. I do not know how many days left, but momma is counting for me. According to her, 40days left. It may sounds like I'm so desperate to go home. I do not know either. Sometimes I felt so defeated. Sometimes I felt this place is so nice. Sometimes I felt malaysia home is forever the best shelter for me. I just want to go home. But I've promised God, Study hard and never cry to go home. This week I've been so productive. I nerd at home all the time. I'm proud of myself since I never done this back in Malaysia, but I guess it's a good practise. I could go online, do homework, chatting, facebook and blogging. Dad doesn't agree with this practise, what he hopes is I could shut down my laptop and stare at my books 24/7! Don't you feel your head would be so heavy and eventually you could just fall asleep on the table. Yeap, I do!

Her cute strawberry bag.wtf!

Her strawberry balloon.wtf!

Her minnie balloon. Wtf!

She was singing to me!

I can't resist myself from listening to CNY songs. DAMN CNY MOOD lar.